Dear diary...

...this will be my new motto!
I came across an article which gives 5 steps to break through your singleness. I could not agree more with it!
The 5 steps in short:
1.Let yourself go
2.Get to know people
3.Open your heart
4.Flirt!
5.Dare to take risks
Actually, it's really self-evident....I already KNEW it. But now I have to DO it!

Dear diary...who is playing hard to get?

I have told you about the annoying guy that contacted me on msn after previously asking me out? Well, he obviously doesn’t take no for an answer. Let me give you a short impression of our chat last week. Please note that I NEVER contact him on msn and I sometimes don’t even get the chance to change my status to ‘occupied’ or even ‘offline’.
Be prepared for some hilariousness:

Him: Hi, how are you?
(After some minutes) Me: I’m fine, you?
Him: great, I just started my new job. How is your new life?
*ok, he clearly doesn’t memorize what I tell him because I only said in a previous chat that I was working on some new projects but nothing important. I decide to leave it for a while and start writing some e-mails and other stuff*
Him (only a few minutes later): Hey, why are you not responding? First you contact me and then you don’t say anything! Well, if you don’t want to talk to me then don’t. Or send it to my e-mail.
*this is crazy, I didn’t contact him! and so he mentions his e-mail which absolutely makes no sense!*
Me: Excuse me, but I’m quite busy. Apart from that: I didn’t contact you!
*I switch my status to ‘not there’*
Him: Too late! You can only make up by going for lunch with me.
Me: You are very annoying.
Him: I know.
Him: I give you three minutes to respond.
Me: You are pushing too hard, I don’t like that at all.
* I don’t respond to his question*
Him: Ok, you missed your chance! Now I maybe ask you in a year or so.
Me: That’s fine by me.
* and I left msn*

I am really starting to think that this guy keeps pushing until he gets what he wants. He is quite freaky don’t you think? Did you see how he tried to get me in the position of ‘wanting him’ and him playing ‘hard to get’? What would you have done and what do you think I should do?

Dear dare-angel:

Welcome to the club!! Do you already feel

more intelligent and respected? ;P

As newly-brunette you should take this quiz

Dear diary...

I finally find a normal guy who is interested in me and that I also find nice. And I meet him a month before he is moving to a place nearly 300 km from here. He meets me and decides that he want to give this place one more shot and tries to get his job back. But gets a NO!

Yesterday I dared to invite him for supper and a movie and I dared to tell him when it was time to go. I'm proud! I feel much more confident right now and a lot is thanks to my colluege but also to my self. He wanted to come to me late tonight but I turned to my heart and asked it what it felt. It was scared for not be able to say goodnight later. I want to get to know this guy in slowmotion and not fastforward everything because I can't say no. That's no longer my behavior.

I feel very scared and nervous around him and said that to him too. Also good for being me :). Now my defenses are kicking in and they are only letting me see all the things that are wrong with me seeing him. But I'm strong and I'm trying to do the opposit of what my fears are telling me to do but still what I want. It's a thin line between theese two.

And today I turned 26 and there is nothing to do about it. Feels good though! Everyone else is also old *mohahahahahah*

That was just a little update!

Being 26....

A short message to a person soon turning 26 from a person who turned 26 five weeks ago ;)
First of all: don't worry, life is still te same when you're 26 (or is that something to worry about??)
Second: being single and 26 is trendy (or otherwise we will set the trend)
Third: They say that 40 is the new 30 (so then I think: 30 is the new 20, 20 is the new 10 which means that we are in our teens ;P )
Forth: F*ck age, it is nothing but a number (be 25 for the rest of your life)
Five: ...(this one is up to you)

Dear diary...

... I don't want to be worst than my dear dare angel friend. I have very much anciety for the moment and it's mostly because I feel like I'm standing in the same spot and not moving forward. I need change but I'm too afraid and I don't know wich change I should make. I've fallen in love with a man I can't be together with and that hurts a lot. I just feel alone and sad right now.

Dear dare angel friend, I'm happy to hear that you are feeling better. Thank good that you got that sorted out and took the help that was given to you. Lots of hugs

I've also found a video that has great lyrics and that I feel very close to.

Death cab for cuties at your service:
I will possess your heart




Sorry that I can't be any more hopefull today.

Dear diary...

...just because.Because I am in blogging-mood ;)Because I wanted to post and share this great song (especially the lyrics) for such a long time.